Wednesday, 12 October 2011

Stretch Marks

The time of decreased citalopram has passed and yesterday I began my new packet of sertraline. The period of weaning myself off citalopram turned out to be tougher than I thought it would. Like being on no meds at all but not quite as bad as I've been in the past.

Unfortunately I did damage myself a bit more than preferred. No ODs but some pretty bad cutting. Overall moodiness was at a high and the crying returned with a vengeance.

I'm obviously a bit anxious about switching again. Will this one work? Will I have to keep switching for the rest of my life? Will I lose this 4 stone of weight I gained on that useless drug?

The biggest issue I remain with is stretch marks from the weight gain. They're pretty much everywhere and although I'm covered in scars already, stretch marks can't be explained quite so nicely.

"What are those?"

"Stretch marks from going from model thin to fat by fat standards."

At least before I had my relatively clear skinned legs but now they're covered in these stretch marks. Weight gain with sertraline is apparently less common than with citalopram so that's a plus I guess.

Wednesday, 5 October 2011


For the past week, I have been on a reduced dose of citalopram to ween me off it for a replacement. As of today, I must vary the days I take it. Only take one tablet every other day until I have none left. My eventual replacement? Sertraline.

To say the past week has been unbearable would be an understatement. The only positives that have happened throughout would be my lack of suicide attempts (unusual for me when on minimal dosage) and lack of cocodamol overdose (mainly due to not having any to begin with!)